A Bottle Full of Tears. . .
Do you ever realize that our tears can be so precious to God that He will keep it safely in the bottle for us? Well, all these while I thought that it's something so foolish, weak and shameful if I cry and guess what? This perception that I have about 'tears' were seemingly wrong. Tears can actually speed up the process for healing and recovery.
And the good news is that, our God keeps track of all our sorrows and has all our tears as a deposit for the future:
You keep track of all my sorrows. You have collected all my tears in your bottle. You have recorded each one in your book. On the very day I call to you for help,my enemies will retreat.
This I know: God is on my side.
O God, I praise your word. Yes, LORD, I praise your word. I trust in God, so why should I be afraid? What can mere mortals do to me? I will fulfill my vows to you, O God, and offer a sacrifice of thanks for your help. For you have rescued me from death; you have kept my feet from slipping. So now I can walk in your presence, O God, in your life-giving light (Psalm 56:8-13).
"Whenever you find tears in your eyes, especially unexpected tears, it is well to pay the closest attention. They are not only telling the secret of who you are, but more often than not of the mystery of where you have come from and are summoning you to where you should go next"(Unknown).
And more often, tears are an essential expression of our brokenness and the language of our souls. They are God's provision for cleansing us of the unbrokenness that hinders and sometimes destroys our spiritual, mental and physical health and well being.
"Thou feedest them with the bread of tears; and givest them tears to drink in great measure" (Psalm 80:5).
Ken Gire wrote in Windows of the Soul, "In each tear is distilled something of eternity, something of love and compassion and tenderness, all things that originate in heaven and come to earth as a sacrament to the soul, if only I am willing to take and to eat. The closest communion with God comes, I believe, through the sacrament of tears. Just as grapes are crushed to make wine and grain to make bread, so the elements of this sacrament come from the crushing experiences of life.
"So much is distilled in our tears, not the least of which is wisdom in living life. From my own tears I have learned that if you follow your tears, you will find your heart. If you find your heart, you will find what is dear to God, and if you find what is dear to God you will find the answer to how you should live your life."
"For Thou does not delight in sacrifice, otherwise I would give it; Thou art not pleased with burnt offering. The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit; A broken and a contrite heart, O God, Thou wilt not despise"(Psalm 51:16-17).
It actually stands as a testimony to God's love and faithfulness to those who cry out to Him for help.
We need never be ashamed of our tears, for they are rain upon the blinding dust of earth, overlying our hard hearts. Charles Dickens (1812-1870)
God will never plant the seed of his life upon the soil of a hard, unbroken spirit. He will only plant that seed where the conviction of His Spirit has brought brokenness, where the soil has been watered with the tears of repentance as well as the tears of joy.
When babies are born my daddy said, "babies are ugly, their faces are funny, heads shaped so werid, they have no hair!"
Then, we were born, daddy said, "we are beautiful, a gift from God and he loves us so.
So, He gently takes us by the hand, calmed our fears and dried our tears, this is how our life began.
My Fathers said, "we are beautiful, a gift from God above."
Believe in God, yourselves, be proud of who you are. Be kind to everyone, no matter where their from. Don't judge ones for where they live or how they dress. Look into their souls, you'll find beauty within.
One of us went to Heaven today, "Daddy I am beautiful, just like you said, both inside and out"
A Father's Love is unfailing, always uplifting and never ending.
If, I could capture my tears in a bottle. I'd feel, my memories one by one.
As they slowly drop through my fingers, re-capturing time of years gone by.
And yes, God is Love and there were times that I don't seem to understand why He puts me in such a situation. But, all I know that if He allowed something so bad to happen, He will definitely be the ONE who will guide and help me to pull through this!
And today, His comfirmation and the conviction of His Love were overflowing me.
For God is for me, who can be against me? (Romans 8:31) The verse above wasn't that coincident but well, when I was talking to one of the lecturers today, who happened to give me the emotional support, she gave me that verse and when I just walked out from her room, one of my close friends came and give me a big, warm hug and she gave me the same verse. And I heard God saying this to me, "My child, do you know that I love you so much and that I'm journeying this difficult moment with you? I'm crying and weeping along with you, as you're now. I know, I know you're suffering and don't know what you can do.. but My child, I will lead you... I will guide you through this and you'll be so much blessings to others. Do not fear for I am with you. With you always and forever!"
Lord, You're just so good and Lord, please help to strengthen and raise my spirit, Lord.. I'm so vulnerable and weak and Lord, I realized that I have my own limitations but Lord, lift me up once again, Lord... Help me to be confident in You again, God, so that I can trust and have faith again in You. Lord, heal me- heal my broken heart and my wounded spirit... Heal my emotions, Lord... Lord, that's one thing that I want to plead from You: Please recover my memory and let it return to its usual functioning, Lord... Lord, it's just so scary for not being able to remember a thing after half an hour...Lord,please Lord....please... There's no one I could lean on but You alone- You alone, Lord! You know, You know my heart... Let Your gentle spirit come and minister to me, now... Lord, for You've said that Your Peace that passes all understanding is mine when I come to believe in the divinity of You, Lord!!! Lord, I don't want to battle alone anymore. I want to stop fighting this alone. Lord, come- Come and help and guide this precious child of Yours...
Now: "I asked You for strength that I might achieve. I was made weak that I might learn humbly to obey. I asked for health that I might do greater things. I was given infirmity that I might do better things. I asked for riches that I might be happy. I was given poverty that I might be wise. I asked for power that I might have the praise of men. I was given weakness that I might feel the need of God. I asked for all things that I might enjoy life. I was given life that I might enjoy all things. I got nothing that I asked for, but everything I hoped for. Almost despite myself, my unspoken prayers were answered. I am, among all, most richly blessed."
Thank You... Thank You for everything!!!
