Miraculous Results
This morning, I got up kinda late, about 9 a.m. and I didn't even know that it's Friday today- which is the day my results gonna be release!!! I almost forgot all about it!! I was like, "Oh no... Oh no... Will the results will be posted in the student intranet today, since the college is closed until this sunday..." And I told myself silently, "Why not I give it a try and see whether my results is there in the intranet or not?" And I knew I'm the type who are by hook or by crook, will try to get it whenever I think it's possible for me to do so!!!
After brushing my teeth, I straightaway on my PC and went online! Immediately, I logged into 'MyPride' (the student intranet) to look out for my results... Inside my heart, I was expecting something like a B or so... cos I knew the exams were tough and I wasn't confident enough to get anything better than that!
Slowly and patiently, I scrolled down the page to see my newest results and guess what?? I couldn't believed what I see... It's like.... a miracle!!! I'ts so unpredictable! And, I was shouting like mad and my grandma who is in the kitchen even heard my loud voice and asked, "What happened? You failed, is it??" I was like, "No .. no... I didn't... it's...." I was too happy until my tears even streamed down!!! I really couldn't believe it!!! It's like a dream to me!!! I could still remember how bad I struggled for my 2nd and 3rd design project... especially for the 3rd one!!! It's like I have to get the 8 pages down within 2 weeks and it's really impossible!!! I thought, I might have failed and I didn't even think I could even finish that 8 pages before the dateline, and I was also the earliest to hand in the 8 pages, which was finally pasted in 2 black sugar paper, with 4 sheets on 1 piece of that sugar paper. At first, I thought, it's better for me to use font size 8-9 just to get this 8 pages done but towards the end, I reduce it to size 4. Could you imagine I almost get blinded with such a small font? I zoomed the page to 300% so that I could read what I have typed in there!!! What a crap!!! Friends calling in and tell me that they are sick of doing this 8 pages and they have a lot more to go.. and I told them that I experienced the same thing too!!! I'm so sick of it!
(Seriously!!!) And the day when I handed in this project, I even asked my lecturer, Mr J who happened to be a bit free at that time, "Will you minus my marks if I use such a small font? " He said, "Depends... but 95% I won't because your content is very detailed.." Well, I left with a feeling of regret and fear and I just wish for the best!!!
For my Chemistry, I could still remember how terrible and regret I was while attending this subject!!! It's like I'm living in an alien planet.. and I don't even know a single thing until the 1st test was held! I got 9/10..(which was indeed a miracle too) For a person like me, who wasn't belong to a science stream, is a tough subject to deal with and with my great determinism and the strong iron-will I have, by hook or by crook, I'm gonna make it to the end!!!! That was what kept me going until my exams results were released!!! Can you imagine me going to the lab with all the blurness in the world doing those experiments? I don't even know what experiment I'm doing and I don't even know what am I doing for? Any reason or purpose? I couldn't think of any!!! Having said that, I have to sit for the lab test to and I thought I'm gonna flunk it straight!!! At first, my lecturer told me that it's gonna be MCQ and I was happy enough as I could 'tembak' it all the way through with the common sense and logic thinking I have!!! But on the day of that lab test, it was all structure like and I knew I'm gonna flunk it and I don't even need to read what was in the question paper!!! But then, I made the choice just to write in anything I know and crap all the way through! To my surprise, I didn't do that bad afterall! And, I did quite well for my 2nd test too!!! With a score of 8/10!! Unbelievable, right? Really a crap to me now!!! And, yup... my chemistry project with my partner... I struggled all the way through with last minute typing and paraphrasing!!! I didn't even know what I typed or learnt so far in chemistry until today, when I got the grades!! I deserved it, I guess.. because of the hardwork and effort I've poured in everyday until the final exams!!
Any for my Introductory to Macroeconomics, as far as I'm concerned, I didn't even know anything after the topics on GDP and Money & Banking! Frankly, I wanted to give up when I got the assignment question, 2 weeks before the dateline! And, my final exam was like a week after that!!! I thought I'm gonna flunk it also as there's a bunch of marks allocated for this assignment!!! And I really wonder what grades I'm gonna received at the end of the day, a c? or a D? or even a F? I couldn't imagine myself getting those grades!!! Really??!!!! With me spending so much time surfing the internet and read through my text book, I managed to have some ideas on how to answer them! Not to forget, my friend, Tien Ching and Carine (friends whom I trusted) has done a great job in helping me out too!!! With the combination of their ideas... I managed to know some basics out of that questions!!! I'm so grateful and thankful for these 2 friends I have until now!!! And I could still remember how determine I was for that whole week of study break, listening to the 20 cassettes (lecturers lecture, recorded) just to have a better understanding of what the whole course is really about and I actually jotted a lot of notes in the lecture notes, so that I can have a last minute look the day before my actual exams!!! That is what I did!!! But could you actually imagine me spending the 30 minutes 'tembaking' half of the MCQs??? I'm not kidding!!! And actually, one of the essay questions which I have spotted came out!! I was so happy becoz it was the only essay question I knew how to answer from the list of that 6 questions given in the exam!!! Thank you, God!!! You're super amazing!!! You saved me!!!! Thank you!!!
Well, I really sufferred a lot!!! After hearing to those cassettes, it was Friday night already and I didn't start revising my chemistry yet!! I was so nervous and grab my 2 big bunch of my chemistry notes, just to read and memorize them properly!!! I knew both the Economics and the Chemistry exams fall on the same day, so I really gonna make it through!!! And I am proud of myself that I did it!!!
To all of you who are wondering about what I have gotten for all these 3 subjects, I have actually gotten A- for both my Intro to Design and Chemistry 1 and a B+ for my Introductory to Macroeconomics!!! And my CGPA now is really a bit satisfying now!!! See??? It's all about miracles!!! It's about the lucky stars that is surrounding me at that time???!!!! Or is it about fate?? Am I really that intelligent? Am I lacking of faith?? Well, these results really proved that I'm capable of doing what I have always wanted and just strive and persevere on with my goals that is in front of me!! Just keep on focus of what I want!!! Eventually, all will become mine at the end of the day!!! The power from the above is really amazing and His care and love for me is really unexplainable!!! It's faith that kept me going everyday!!! Trust Him... trust myself!!! Love Him, love myself!!! :) I'm really happy and filled with joy!!!!
