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"Counting down!!! Counting down!!* It is only the 4th day of my break but I'm so bored with it. Nonsense, right? Don't you think so? I have always wanted for a break whenever I'm in the midst of my semester but when the holidays emerged, I wanted to be in college and in lectures again. I guess I couldn't stop myself from getting my hands back on my books and assignments. It seems a a fun and interesting to do! But I can imagine most of you who are reading this will shook your heads. Well, any comments and feedbacks are welcome as there is nothing such as right or wrong. I'm sure all of you know this, right?:P Haha...
I'm still wondering now. 'Why am I saying I am bored when I have a proposal to get done with?' Perhaps, it might because I'm still struggling with it. I have no ideas on how to write a grant proposal although with the long list of guidelines in front of me. Maybe I'm still too tired after my exams on Monday and I'm still in the mood of the break. But that proposal is due by next week...and I didn't even get my hands on- even for the first sentence.
Wait a minute!!! I think what is going on in my mind now is sleep, daydreaming... catching up with the latest chinese movie on TV and last but not least, still figuring how many subjects to take the coming semester. Well, will it be too risky for me to take 5 subjects since there's no more mid terms? Am I too silly and rush? Am i making a good, wise decision? Am I... Am I??? God, why am I rushing? Why? Why? God, if you think it's more than I can handle, do let me have it... if not, you please decide it for me.... *helpless* God, I'm tired... I'm really tired... I just hope you will fastforward the time for me to graduate soon- get a job and enjoying my career!
Hey, my dear daughter,
Hope you hear Me- Listen to this:
Visualize in your mind,
even for a few moments,
what success would look like to you.
See yourself somewhere in that vision
as content and happy.
You can achieve whatever you want
as long as you have faith
and believe that you deserve
what I (God) intended for you.
Visualize what it is that you want,
then work toward it;
take one step each day.
Half the battle is won
if you just keep that vision
firmaly planted in your life.
The rest is in the hands of Mine! (God).
After listening to this, I'm stunned, looking around for some clues but deep inside my heart, I knew what God wants from me is to have more FAITH in Him, for He is a God of Provider, nothing more than our God of Everything!! He is above All !!! Amen!!!
I need to change...probably inside out! I could still remember that change is a natural part of all life... it's inevitable! Well, if I can't change the ones outside of me, then it's high time for me to change MYSELF!! Yes, I, Me and Myself!! Want to hear my thoughts on this?
Come along with me:
Clouds do not stand still,
Trees boom, then shed their leaves,
Tides come to shore, then retreat,
Night follow day
which in turn follows night.
Life is a constant cycle- ever changing- yet never changing....
And we are a part of it all...
We will be here for a time,
but only until our time is done.
We have only just so much time
to make our mark,
so that we are worth remembering.
We should realize that we are as important as: the clouds, the tides and the seasons,
we have our place and must play our part
as best as we can
in life's ever-unfolding story!
In short, do not fear of change but embrace it!! Look at the positive side of change. Be more optimist! Change can help you grow: grow and think more maturely. Just believe that God will guide you through... Have faith and trust in Him!!!
I will surrender all to You, LORD!!!! I promise!!!
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emiko shinning brightly at 3:33 PM
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