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Tired. Nervous. Anxious. Sleepless nights. Am I being too sarcastic or what? Oh well, what else could I say? Nothing much I think. That's how I am feeling right now at this very minute. *Shrugs* My exam results will out by tomorrow. I'm not sure what will I be getting. Didn't even thought of going to college to have a look at my results since it will be posted in the student intranet- 'MyPride'. I guess it should be there by 10 a.m tomorrow. Hopefully! I just couldn't wait for the results to be out. A lot of things going round my mind now... for instance, "Will I fail?", "Will I do well?" and "Will the lecturer mark properly my paper?" I just couldn't help thinking of those things...
And, you guys know what? I am actually using this so-called scary moment to pack my things, filing up my notes, arranging them back to the shelves and all... See!!! I should have been lazing around, don't I? Instead of that, I have been out the whole morning, returning back someone's properties, went for a thorough interview and half of my day gone just like that.
Well, I am actually going out with my best friend to Mid Valley (MV) tomorrow and I am deciding whether to view my results at home first , then only follow her to MV or the other way round. She won't be at HELP anymore as she will be transferring her credits to IGS. For her, to be there, will give her less stress and she wants to start her life anew again! In my opinion, I think I will miss her a lot like how she will miss me... both of us have been doing things together, encourage each other and we just like 'twins' moving around the college compound and classes. Sounds funny, isn't it?
By now, I have so many things to decide... A dilemma, I bet! So confusing!!! =( In fact, it is part and parcel of life to be able to make my own decisions as I am a grown up girl... no more a little kid, running here and there- without knowing the direction she is going to.
Aarrgghhh, I really not sure what should I do now... Will I sleep peacefully and soundly tonight or I just lying down on my bed, with questions floating in my mind? Hmmm, I have no idea on that. Most probably will be the 2nd one! Haih, I think I would lift everything up to God and let Him settle everything, in view of His timing and His will. No use worrying now.
It's over!!!! It's over!!! I should be happy!!! *Grins* New semester starting this Monday!!! I'm looking forward to it and I just miss doing assignments and projects. I guess I have got a hang of doing it until I can't live a day without it. But for Ms. Winnie's class, I bet I will struggle with her subject and the Chemistry class I will be attending soon! For Intro to Design, I just need to get use with the program I am using in order to do well in that subject. But it will be a little stressful this time round as there will be no more mid term exams in the middle of my semester due to that 'University College status' that HELP had received recently(Menyusahkan semua orang shj). Haih... no use complaining... what I can do, I will do... what I can't, I will pray hard to God, that He will grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can, and wisdom to know the difference. {Thank you Sulynn for this little reminder whenever I bumped into you. It has seemeed to guide me through all these while, in terms of my studies and my everyday living. Without that, I think my life will just stop there... not knowing what to do}.
I think I better not go long-winded...Before I pen-off, this is something that I have realized a few days ago which goes: After the storm, there will be sunshine, the tree unbends and things will get better. I will stand strong by this 5 letters: FAITH~ that is what helps me to move on everyday! =) Chiaoz!!!~~
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emiko shinning brightly at 4:21 PM
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