I'm tired, dead tired. I am not sure what has been pulling me down but I guess it is the assignments and quizzes that seems to pull me down more and more each day. In fact, as the Chinese New Year is just a day to go but lectures seem don't let me go to have my holidays. Mid term exams is a week after the Chinese New Year break and there is a few project that is going to due once the chinese new year break is over. Loads of quizzes coming up as well.. Hectic, you know!!!! I'm just wondering how long can I stand this stress and all!!! But, what I could remember is that God will not leave me nor forsake me no matter how hard my situation will be as He will be pouring out blessings and wisdom upon me. Definitely sure!!

Although my birthday has passed by a few days, that doesn't stopped my friends from giving me small gifts- big gifts as in to appreciate my great friendship with them. One of them is: Charlene...you have been a great friend to me and I will never forget your lovely smile and advices!!! =) The time we laugh and shared our thoughts and I guess it is more than that!! I won't deny that! God has been so good to me as when I'm so desperate for help, there will a few friends surrounding me and all of them is on their way calling me up, to lend me a shoulder for me to cry on. Lord, you have been so good to me....so good...and I really want to glorify YOUR name more and more each day!!! Your love is unmeasurable!!! Hallelujah!!!

Wait a minute... what is going through now at this point of time is that I'm trying my best to maintain my CGPA and I really hope I can get through this semester with flying colors. God , I know by YOUR grace, you will- Guiding me through at this very minute and I believe by faith that you are going to provide me as You're a God of Providence!!! You know my needs and my desires and I always know that YOU'RE up there hearing to my cries!!

Having said that, God has given me some time for me to do my very last minute shopping to get some new clothes as I have none in the beginning... you see...He has provide me some extra time (precious time) to get some new clothes for myself for this new year... All the days since the semester started has been used for completing the projects, drafts and all... and for the next one day, I will be using these time to study and prepare myself for the mid terms... NOTHING MORE!!!

New year to me now is just a tradition and that doesn't seem to excites me anymore... Well, is it because I am 20 right now, officially?? I supposed so!! As that has made a BIG difference in the level of my maturity and all...different thoughts, different perceptions towards the world and what people thinks of me doesn't seem to bothers me at all anymore...I think it is because I will have my own career , a year after next and by that time, by establishing my own career will bring those satisfaction in me, my own expectations and I believe all these leads to a better and more challenging phase of my lifetime! I am expecting that!!! ;) Just can't wait for it to come!

Friends has been the most important 'tools' or the 'motivators' in helping me to succeed in my studies as well a healthy mental health! Being a sociable young lady right now is something that is out of my expectations but this is the fact: I'm having so many good friends around me now and everyone of them has their own role to play, as well as myself. Despite my grandad has been severely senile, I'm having so much stress in terms of the situations at home and what I looking forward into is that I just want PEACE!! Just peace...you hear me, LORD??? I believe YOU do!! I still can remember how friends around me has made a great impact in my life and who am I right now is not because I am the victim of the past nevertheless am I reflecting the past incidences. I am God's most precious child and I am blessed and will continue to be a blessing to others!!

Have to pen off for tonight and will be back after my mid term exams!! Chiaoz for now!! To all my Chinese friends, wishing you all a Happy Chinese New Year and to the others of you, Happy Holidays and All the best in your exams!! (",) Best wishes always!!!

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